30 minutes...

to think there's gotta be more to life"


The title and continuation of it is based on 2 songs:
30 minutes by T.a.Tu & There's gotta be more to life by Stacie Orrico.

I think these two songs describe the best this picture.

Also this is a self based representation

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Explanation:
Usually I'm the kind of girl that gets to her limit, emotionally. "I have to" say that I have borderline personality, also ADD , these two things made me really insecure , I can't even trust myself to get my plans done, (not that I have too many of those). I often want to give up but there is still something that keeps me going . My interaction with people has been affected too, many times I think I will end up all alone xD , since sometimes I can't even stand myself , How could I expect someone else to do it? That's why I'm not really open or at least I try not to get attached.. anyways I'm getting into other stuff ...

Usually when I lose my track I just sit, and think "Why?"
Why am I doing what I do? Why is this feeling getting in my way?
Why do I limit myself? .. a lot of "Why's"


Then the "Because" attacks xDD , is not nice at all... but after that I just keep doing what I'm doing
Drawing is one of my escapes, but most of it drawing things that satisfice me, my ideas , what inspires me (Yeah I'm kinda selfish about it...)

The bad thing about this is that I realize that I'm not as good as I would like to, this gives me the blues too ._.U , but in those ocassions after the "meditation" I just realize that complaining is not gonna make me better xD, so I start to draw

I have even told my best friend "I could delete my FB, be all incomunicated, isolated and everything, but the day I delete my Deviant account .. you can expect that I definitely gave up"

I started this drawing after I uploaded my last picture, just because I was feeling like this, I got dissapointed by my own work, also I took so long to finish it because of work and well, minecraft .w.

My speech as always died, lol. I'm not good expressing myself, so I tried to draw it.. I don't know if you get the idea.

I guess that's all the description lol , you are brave or you have a lot of free time if you read all of this. (?)

Sorry about my English